Day 8 - What was I thinking?

 I'm experiencing a huge case of buyers remorse.  Homeschooling?  What did I get myself into?   

Feelings of utter overwhelment hit me hard this morning.  It is a similar feeling to postpartum depression. Suddenly you realize that your life is never, ever going to be the same.  You are no longer the person you used to be.  You no longer have those precious 5 hours of alone time while your kids are school.  You are not going to get them back anytime soon!  You are going to be joined at the hip with two life-sucking monsters forever- ARGHHH!   My neck is in an angry tight ball of stress just thinking about it.

These overwhelming emotions hit me hard this morning.  And of course caused me to unnecessarily lash out at my kids.  They were both in grumpy Monday morning moods as well.

"Fine,  you don't want to learn anything today! That's just great! "  I screamed.   "Then we are going to clean this house top to bottom."

" Ok, ok..."  Zach pleads. "I'll read the book."

"Nope"  I replied, already dragging the steam cleaner outside to clean our area rugs.  "You can either clean your room or figure out your work on your own." (When I'm mad - I clean and I clean hard. My body hurts tonight as a result.)

"I'll help you clean, Mom."  Lauren offered.  She's always takes the sweet angle when I am pissed off.

So todays learning plan look a turn from Arizona fun facts to making beds, folding laundry and vacumming.    

Zach fought every minute of it... finally resigning to listening to a book and working on writing his own creative book.

Eventually I was too tired to be upset anymore and we sat down to watch a few nature videos.   Brave Wilderness on You Tube has some awesome scorpion sting videos that enthrawled the kids and me!  Good luck getting either of them to want to camp in the desert now!